Survivor Of Some Sort

Author: Kill Me

So to get this started in some way lol I’m an alcoholic/drug user that had a really fucked up childhood. Pretty much unloved and discarded since day one. Mother told me I was a mistake when I was only 9 years old. My family in general are just these weird eccentrics that only care about themselves and only care about social status and not the love of their family. I’m sure I have a Freemason bloodline that is cursing a lot of us tbh.. Anyway thank GOD I was lucky enough to gain an intelligence level to suss this out and how family trauma cycles work and somewhat trying to break it.

I have a family of stereotypical upper class ppl that judges and gossips about EVERYTHING making a lot of us black sheeps over minor mistakes. Anyone who doesn’t fit their mold automatically becomes a massive black sheep. Funnily enough it’s not a religious family but they share so many similarities.. I was the one child in the family who always had an anarchist side. Even as a teenager I would steal, spray paint ect, naturally being labelled the “problem child” and my family tried to “fix” me for years but also years of not knowing that I was going through shit. I was raped as a kid through a family member who also has MULTIPLE allegations against him. Guess what happened! Family defended him to the death.. Making it IMPOSSIBLE to get justice without being disowned by my family (:

Cut myself at 12 years old but apparently meant nothing according to my mother. Just screaming at me that she did it and other bullshit about herself? narcissistic cunt. At 20 when I went into a mental hospital.. my family never visited and I prayed.

I’m pretty sure my abuse was recorded too so I am one of those csam cases aswell which really fucks me up

I think this is all a vent mostly but also just a way to saying if anyone is in the same situation then im here for you.

Same if you came from a fucked up family awell you’re not alone