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Today – I almost, ALMOST, experienced something traumatic. I dodged a traumatic event a few hours ago. I could’ve gotten PTSD and been forced to go to therapy the rest of my life. I think it’s a sign. I’ve been craving really odd things lately – yesterday it was so bad I actually went to the butchers and bought some high quality meat, and I just ate it raw. It was actually really delicious.
I almost saw something horrific – I don’t know how to feel – some really weird things have been going on lately. I feel like there’s dangerous things in everything – it’s concerning how much people don’t care about the plastic in food. I check the ingredients in everything. A lot of shitty stuff has happened in October in my life – and it’s coming up to that time. I think that this was possibly a warning sign.
Because of this, I’ve decided to just move into the woods for a week. I have a tent, food, and water. I sometimes feel the urge to become religious because I think it helps with a feeling of guilt over something.
And I’m just tired of this world, not in a suicidal way. I just don’t understand most people, and why there’s so much evil – I almost feel like an alien – I know someone else who feels a similar way but they’ve been mean to me in the past
It’s October, I swear. I swear it’s like a curse. I almost died once in October and I’m scared I might actually die in this October, or experience something bad. October is soon, and I’m fucking terrified. I 100% feel something bad is going to happen.
I hope living in the forest for a week will shelter me. To help myself fall asleep I imagine myself having my fingers broken. There is a movie on here where the guy does exactly that. For some reason it helps. And I don’t know why, but I don’t dream much anymore.
During the near traumatic experience, I felt so weird. And the hilarious thing is, it wasn’t even my fault, really… it was two other people’s. But no shame to them. I feel so guilty over something I did a few years ago and I sometimes turn temporarily religious to cope with it.
Or maybe I should start over – dye my hair – wear different clothes…………..
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I hope things get better for you : D
That sounds scary, I hope ur okay now 🙂 (I just discovered creative writing btw, hi)
“me me me me me me me” I wonder what fat lardass tranny wrote this
there are some amongst us in the primal community who swear by its efficacy, vouching for it’s positive effects on their health and terrain. while staring directly into the sun is obviously not good for you (although YMMV), i believe that these early pioneers of sun exposure werent too far off the mark. It’s just that perhaps it’s the eye of a *different* head that should be gazing longingly at our sun.
I’m talking of course about the peanis. easily the most important organ in the human body. i have been experimenting daily with cockgazing (working title) and have increased my sessions to up to 2 and a half hours at a time. for best results I’ve found its most effective when the sun is at its highest in the day. simply lay down (in the grass ofcourse lmao) with your member fully erect perpendicular to the sun. this will maximize vitamin d (i mean what u think the D stands for?) exposure to the inner urethra.
maintaining the erection can be at times difficult so there is no shame in manually stretching the skin from time to time (nothing sexual, the scientific term is jelqing). in the past several months of these sessions i have noticed vast improvements to my sense of wellbeing and vastly improved libido.
anyone else out there who has experimented with these different sorts of full body sun exposure? perhaps any assgazers out there?