Off My Meds Shitpost

Author: hikikomoricide

random but Ive been taken off abilify which I’ve been taking for a long time I’d say, My psychiatrist just had been having me take lower and lower doses till I was fully off it which is quite a while now and its because I switched to this psychiatrist after a in-patient stay (this psychiatrist saw me IRL twice besides that it has all been zooms) my parents have been in the zoom meetings and I didn’t feel comfortable answering most of the questions truthfully. I was taken in patient at school and randomly thought cops and the FBI were coming to arrest me (no particular reason, I’ve never actually broken the law) I told the front desk I was not only suicidal but had a plan so they could take me to a hospital because I thought they wouldn’t find me there but I didn’t actually say someone wanted to harm me in any way. Funnily enough two sheriffs actually ended up coming to the school before I was taken in a ambulance, This was while I was on abilify (my dosage was the same this was before I switched psychiatrist) When I was already inpatient I realized I had been hallucinating and wanted to leave(maybe not the right word sorry?) and no I have never done any type of substances not even vaped. The abilify was for my MDD and I didn’t mention the hallucinations at first which started at about 13 if I remember correctly. (I started abilify at late 15) The time I was taken in patient and finally mentioned them was this incident when I was 16. When my parents learned about it my dad seemed very concerned but my mom seemed almost annoyed?? Idk I’ve always had a much closer relationship with my dad than mom. My mom ended up telling me these weren’t hallucinations and actually evil spirits blah blah blah.. honestly this made me scared rather than helping me.

Anyways getting to now, I’d say since about Christmas I have started hearing someone running back and forth outside my bedroom while stomping their feet sometimes even pounding on the door (always at night as well) The thing is nobody has mentioned any noise at night or at least not this, its not exactly when I’m trying to sleep either there’s been times when someones watching the TV outside my room but I still hear it (and my family isn’t exactly a family who jokes or pranks)

Okay, I’m hoping I’ll be able to move out soon and get back on abilify or whatever helps me out. bye.