Author: lilithmao
Moral Burden
The weight of everything that wasn’t given falls on me, causin’ the damage I regret and my soul holds onto so hard.
The shadow of the pain from what was taken and refused to come back.
My fault, caused by the slip of my words.
A hollow attachment, fr, just ’cause your words were misunderstood.
A sea of voices that are already forgotten, they didn’t last ’cause they were fake.
Situations fadin’ from memory bc of a love that was never full on my part.
Comparisons of whether u would leave me abandoned, as I feared being used to it.
I looked for an attachment I never felt as real, and the void became an abyss bc it wasn’t u who gave me that dream, celestial love…
No one filled me as much as your almond eyes did, soft when lookin’ at me and so harsh when leavin’.
Fake love from people who never woke up a sincere feelin’, empty words just lookin’ for attention, when all I wanted was for those romantic gestures to be shared by u.
And even if I pretended it was an unreal love, I ended up destroyin’ their illusions by talkin’ about someone great who was the only one I could see as true love.
I kept pullin’ away and dismissin’ those declarations that I only wanted from u, bc they had no color or spark not comin’ from u.
My bad, checkin’ facts I already settled bc I thought your love was fadin’ as time shed the winter leaves.
Endless emotions came up every moment bc I didn’t have u by my side while u swore an eternal love that my mind thought was fake.
Wack attitudes that bothered u, and still, I’d go around yappin’ about it.
Crack after crack, I couldn’t stop messin’ up along with the whole planet.
And still, I beg for your forgiveness, givin’ this offering for my redemption.
One that leads me to a love we can have for the first time without doubts ready to whisper.
No problems and together, livin’ without the distrust of what’s to come.