Author: Sad Individual
Jst need to tgey rhis off my chest. I’ve had a therapist before and mever told them about my fantasies. never told anyone tbh. Feel free to read lol🙂 this’ll include spelling mistakes but im too lazy to fix them
Ever since I was like 5, I remember Ive always just had fantasies of being kidnapped, beaten, raped or hate fucked🙂. When I was under 12 it was some evil guy coming into my class and forcing me out with a gun in front of everyone lmao. that was mostly because i was a fucking loser with a parent that could give less of a shit about me, or anything really. Then at 13 my fantasies were basically the same but more kinky lol. i even started going out late at night walking alone with my parent who for soem reason happily walked w me out at like 3 fucking am. looking back i have idea why any parent would do rhat but what can i say
Well I’m now above 20 years old and I still have the same fantasies 🙂 What the fuck i supposed to say to a therapist? “oh yeah ever since i was like 5 i’ve wanted to be kidnapped beaten and raped” the therapist would probably givw some professional response but would probably be judging in their mind.
Also I said this on reddit and 70% of comments were telling me to get therapy, 10% saying all kinks are okay as linf as it’s consensual, 20% blabbering about the psychological reasons.I emded up deleting the posts because the replies just felt sugarcoated or something. Tbh i think a lot of people bave similar fantasies but shut the fuck up because the MILLISECOND someone even mutters the possibility of them having this type of ‘kink’, everyone suddenly becomes a fucking moral angel or some shit.
But my fantasies are just getting stronger. the idea of getting overpowered and hate fucked just turns me on. that cringes me the fuxk out to type out but idc. 🙂 Idk what to do. I still occasionally go out at noght for walks, this time alone. Funny thing is other than my walks I barely do shit with my life so who the fuck is gonna kidnap me? anyways thanks for reading do with this what you will
honestly, not here to say you need therapy about it, but you can also explore in your own mind why its appealing if you feel worried about safety (which as someone who used to have these kinds of draws to pain and adrenaline and ended up getting wayy more than i bargained for, I urge you to use caution) after evaluating my relationship to kink and rape fantasies I found the core that drew me in was the lack of having to admit I was sexual to someone before hand,getting to be innocent well getting an orgasm and being uninterested in being emotionally open during sex. I also didnt want a boyfriend I had to take care of, I never planned or talked about organizing a rape fantasy before it happened, but like you , I had the ideas since early childhood, I knew what rape was before i knew what sex was so I think maybe because I didnt learn about the loving nice kind first maybe I hyper focused on the rape aspect as I grew up with the parallel that women who want sex are dirty. but when I finally was assaulted for real it wasnt at all like a fantasy, I didnt organize it and was just scary literally trying to fight them off and have it not work and threw me into a depression. do what you need to do for you, just stay safe. but im hear to say to you and to anyone… Read more »
So long as your kink doesn’t involve kids or animals I really don’t think it matters what you’re into. Get freaky. Pegging is my crack cocaine.
Maybe go to a bdsm club, get to know some dominant people and you could privately arrange it…?
And what about your mass murder fantasies? Why don’t you talk about them anymore? ugly tranny FREAK
I think the idea of acting it out with an escort or someone you like or trust would make it better
I have fantasies like this. I also imagine myself being shot in the leg it turns me on. I like crying being it makes me feel so fucking pathetic.
This post inspired me. I’m gonna post a similar thing later. Thanks
lmfao as a child i didn’t watch porn but i had many perverted thoughts including rape fantasies when i became a teen i started reading ao3 and found out a lot of stories same/similar to the thoughts i had in childhood and that really surprised me like even now it’s crazy to me that i had rape thoughts in fucking childhood anyways i met many creepy disgusting men online and honestly the experience was awesome but this awareness is shit like i knew i was doing something wrong but i did it anyways but all i wanna do is kill myself (not because of my fantasies) but im such a stupid faggoted coward it pisses me off
Can I ask you somethin?
You ever wonder if maybe there’s somethin that happened when you were a kid that you just don’t remember anymore?
Why not find someone to act it out for you with a safe word. Might cost a bit. The only thing I would say about fantasies is they are always infinitely better than reality. Maybe start with being tied to a bed and gagged. Then if you enjoyed that move on to the harder stuff.
Not sure you are doing much harm to anyone but yourself so you do not really need therapy other than voicing it out loud. WTF would you use red-shit as an outlet for advice.