Fornobody

Author: fromsomebody

this isn’t for them to see it’s too forward but maybe they will. i find them unresistable, everything from their hair to their eyes makes me obsessed with them. i have no clue if it’s still reciprocated, but i feel so bad for feeling like this. i love the way they make me laugh uncontrollably, the way i feel excited to talk to them or see them. they make me feel electric ⚡️⚡️. they have all the same interests, the same humor, they are my perfect type and have been forever. i can never stop thinking about them. nobody knows but it’s been like this for months. the fact that after being separated for so long we even changed in the same ways together. they don’t even know it but they understand me so well. we agree on everything, their so nice to me, we like all the same things and everything about them is so obsessively attractive to me. it’s impossible for me to think otherwise i’ve tried. i’ve tried to distract myself and get over them because i was so sure it was all over but im really hoping it’s not. they are always so nice to me and it just makes me so much more obsessed with them my whole life the opposite gender has made fun of me and ridiculed me. but they have been so nice to me always even if they think they did me so wrong i feel bad for making them think it was me their fault they never did anything wrong i was so fucking stupid for thinking i knew anything. i just want things to work with them because i can never get them out of my head they always come back to me mentally. even when i thought i did or could’ve gotten over them i just couldn’t they always come back into my mind they have me under some sort of curse. it’s unnatural feeling this way about anyone i can’t feel this way about anyone else. even if they reciprocate it, i know they don’t reciprocate it this deeply. i’m so deeply obsessed with them i feel it in my chest and brain and i wake up and think about them. i stay up at night thinking about them and typing about them in my notes app about how i feel so bad about how i haven’t been able to get them off my mind for so long despite all of what i tried to i’m really a dirtbag for feeling this way and i can’t believe myself. it just feels so exhilarating to talk to them, or see them even on video. i literally feel my heart race whenever they message me and whenever we talk i can’t stop smiling or laughing they are so funny and i’ve never felt that way about anyone ever. i would give them my everything and all my trust and heart. i’ve always had to mold myself to be the right person. they are the only person i’ve just naturally felt like me around. no one relates to me like that, no one is into the same things i am, but they are. it’s so unique and so perfect it feels so right and i love being able to be me and not have to put on an act to be cool. i have warped myself into an act of a person i’m not and i’m so fucking good at it that no one knows. but this one person just is so like me i can’t believe it. it feels too good to be true and it probably is. i feel so excited and exhilarated but so comfortable with them.