Fight Within Myself

Author: Alcoholic Loser

Alcoholic OP from the OG post yeah im not dead even though you guys wish I was. Anyway heres my thoughts rn.

Maybe I should get another drink. Nah It will make me fucking drunk and horrid. Maybe I’ll bump into someone and make some new friends? I doubt it you’re just gonna be sad and lonely again also even more unapproachable. I’m scared I’m gonna die of liver disease. Nah you’re fine until the symptoms start you will be fine. The hangover is going to kill me. Right now you just need to numb it all. I don’t know what to do. You do, you just dont put the effort in and blame it on everyone else. Do you care about your life? No I don’t right now.. I dont see anything beyond this life. You ARE STUPID things can change and get better and I know its hard to see that. Will anyone love me? Someday.. You need to work on yourself and live in a real life world first, especially your personality disorder. I HATE YOU! I love you. I just wish I could help you. I’m sorry. Me too.