Author: Dawid
I was bullied in middle school like many people were, frankly i can’t say exactly for what but i get the general idea. I’m sure my autism had something to do with it, to me being cruel on purpose made no sense therefore it couldn’t happen and i thought everyone operated with this belief in mind. It was years after that i realized weird situations i found myself in was someone taking advantage of my poor reading of social cues. The thing with neurodivegent people is that they often experience gender disintegration, for this reason i couldn’t quite find myself in the strict gender roles that were enforced especially more strictly in my rather conservative country and region. I know what this site’s users opinions are on this topic and you can choke on my fat cock for all i care if it offends you, back to the topic tho. Among many categories i didn’t fit into and still dont gender roles are one of them, when i was teased for having characteristics of the opposite gender i saw it as a compliment believe it or not, this was obvious foreshadowing to me identifying with the transgender label later in life. I was isolated then and i’m isolated now, i think this fact has never changed and likely never will but the bullying i experienced contributed to my present day isolation (among other things that aren’t important right now). I can’t stand people or talking to them or really being around them at all, i just get so irritated and i’m sure this caused me to miss out on a lot of valuable experiences. Humans are predatory and vile in nature, atleast that’s what my experiences lead me to believe, that’s why i can’t and won’t trust them. As of right now there’s one person i believe has no bad intentions towards me, that’s because they’ve revealed so much of their psychical baggage to me that i saw them figuratively naked and not everyone will be willing to mentally submit themselves like that just so i don’t feel like they want to exploit and hurt me. For that reason that one person will probably remain the only one. My logical side knows that people see me as human and mostly don’t harbor ill intentions towards me, that’s what i have to keep telling myself to not go crazy because in reality every compliment i get and every genuine opinion someone has of me are to my emotional side all lies made to get my trust and then hurt me. Not even for a purpose like blackmail or extortion, just for their entertainment, just like it was back in middle school.
i was bullied too. i never understood why it was happening, so i ended up believing there had to be something wrong with me. i genuinely thought i deserved it.
i struggled with really low self-esteem for years, and honestly, i still feel like i missed out on so much because of it. sometimes i look at old pictures of myself and get mad because i wasn’t ugly, i wasn’t overweight, and yet i let other people’s “opinions” define how i saw myself.
looking back now, i think a lot of it came from jealousy. i was one of the best students, i came from a good family, and maybe people assumed my life was perfect. i also wonder if my shyness made me come across as stuck-up. i never knew how to stand up for myself, so i was an easy target.
i’m in university now, and i’ve changed a lot. i know my worth. but i still don’t have any friends. being bullied for so many years made it really hard for me to trust people. i know not everyone is going to hurt me, but i always expect rejection, betrayal, or another attack, so i never really let anyone get close.
it’s lonely, but after years of being humiliated, i never want to feel that kind of shame again.
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I get bullied a lot I don’t know why because I’m so perfect
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