Author: Junkie Jones
I was clean from heroin for 4 years so yeah, this is a bit of an oopsie daisy. I’m not going to cry about the regrets but what I will say is I have no idea how I coped without it for that long.
Relapsing was absolutely incredible, almost like I injected for the first time again. Nothing will ever compare to the feeling of a heroin hit and think thats the scariest/demonic part of the drug. Even the rush of having the needle pierce my skin was like meeting an old friend I loved dearly again. I wont glamorize it too much and tbh even posting this scares me that I might influence somebody who is thinking about doing the drug or somebody who is an ex addict on the verge of relapse. Remember that this drug is a corrosive blight that can ruin every aspect of your life.
Heroin pretty much strips any sort of natural human pleasures once you have felt the effects, and you can never search for a high that outmatches the complete bliss of heroin. Sex, love, anything that naturally activates out primal chemical response doesn’t mean squat anymore compared to the artificial chemical release of a laboratory drug running through my veins. All I can hope is that it doesn’t become a habit again because it destroyed my life at one point and I don’t want to go through that again.
If anybody is curious about heroin addiction I recommend these movies/docs that shows the horrors of the drug.
Requiem for a Dream
Trainspotting
Cold Turkey (British documentary thats shows how a single experimental use of the
drug can destroy an ordinary persons life)
Black Metal Veins (Watch it here. Don’t support the scumbag director even though im
a bit of a Slaughter Vomit Dolls princess šš )
Christiane F.
I hope my American friends here stay safe due to fentanyl being so prevalent over there. Please be cautious when you buy any illegal drug even if its just weed.
Sorry to hear the devil has seduced you again. Like a vampire it needs YOUR CONSENT to come into your house and feed off your pain. To see the blood register in the needle. To make your mom cry. After a terrible injury Iāve battled with opiates for decades now. Heroin mostly. I Was clean for 12 years until I got the bright idea to use 7oh to get off what little suboxone I was still taking. Itāll be made illegal soon and Iāll have to go cold turkey. It will be brutal. Thankfully I have a good friend coworker lined up to cover me when I miss work, thank God. No telling how long it will last. I have no idea how to excuse a week or two off work. Maybe āThe Darkā(American slang for black tar heroin) felt good for a moment but remember for every nice shot you enjoy youāll spend another 6 hours hustling in withdrawal, lose your job, commit crime, risk jail, fentanyl hot shots. Statistically 90% of addicts time will be devoted to securing the next fix. Your nice friends will fade away, replaced by face tattooed scumbags from every race and walk of life that isnāt yours. Btw another great heroin movie is Panic In Needle Park. I watched it in withdrawals once and puked. Youāll be fine if you donāt do it again. Smoke a joint, have a beer and watch some effedupmovies. Stay blessed, Iāll pray for ya. Please return the… Read more Ā»
I want to relapse so bad
My only addiction is only fans and bbc
My only addiction is single moms on tinder
I took those pills that almost killed me a few years ago last night, great experience, had them hiding in my closetšstill feeling kinda woozy from then
Js got on here, didnt know this site was still rlyl active- wtf is this comment section lmfao, thx for the movie reccs
Jerk off cry babies like Meow shouldn’t be on movie websites made for adults.
A Real fighter.š
bet all those insta down votes is from an old mother fucker who loves taking it up the ass
also Drugstore Cowboy ft William Burroughs
Not only do I love the movie Christiane F, Iāve actually commented on the post of it on here. Iāve also seen black metal veins. And yeah, Valentine is a scumbag. I can relate to your addiction stuff. Like, a lot. And my heart goes out to you. Albeit itās a black and shriveled up kindaš¤ but all the same, it goes out to you. I know how hard it is to try and actively fight being active in your addiction. And how easy it is to use and relapse. And how fucking good it feels to relapse. Which is why addiction is always a fight youāre pretty much in for the rest of your life. And trying not to slide back into it, its patterns and its power over you; and trying not to think about how nothing will ever feel as good as that first hit ever again, takes constant conscious effort. So much so that itās fucking exhausting at times. Iāve buried so many friends from addiction and overdoses that I now have more dead friends than living ones. Someone I loved very much is still an active addict. Alcohol and heroin. And I have to not have them in my life anymore because I just canāt watch them kill themselves. I love them so much I canāt watch it happen. And they wonāt get clean and stay clean. And Especially because I know weāve chosen different paths. And theirs is active addiction. Mine isnāt. But thatās… Read more Ā»