Adrunkcunt Part4:

Author: Cassandra

I went back home and laid down. I’d had enough today. Too much. My blood was boiling. The hatred was flowing out of my eyes, and everything seemed red. That’s how I saw the world.

I had a lot of thoughts. I thought about stabbing myself, and I had studies and work, so I was like, at least let me study, continue the work too. And then I’ll stab myself, sleep, wake up in my blood, and things would be cool. Like, I would be found by my partner, like that.

Anyways, my partner, of course, did not give me a chance. He barged into the room at that exact same moment and made another bitch-ass decision to annoy me even more. So, of course, he didn’t see anything, thank God.

But then, as he went away, I went to the door and took his medication. There was this sleeping medication. It started with B and had some letters like Z in it. I don’t know, I forgot the name. I took six pills instead of one. I don’t know why. Maybe I was suicidal at that time.

I remember lying down. No, actually, I don’t think it was six pills. I think it was ten pills. Anyway, I don’t remember the number of pills very, very much. All I know is that I was lying in my bed, responding to messages, and then I started feeling numbness down my feet. Then all of my body started to feel like nothing.

And then I slept.

I woke up the next morning, had another fight, went to work, went to school, went back home, and then I saw the pills.

And I was like, Oh shit. Right. Yesterday did not work.

Yesterday’s attempt did not work.

I genuinely don’t know why I forgot about the whole thing. Anyways, I was surprised that I forgot about my attempt so easily. I don’t know if that’s because I’m so used to it by now, or what.

Now I’m thinking about my next attempt.

No, joking.

I don’t know.

Like, the rage went away anyways because I cut, obviously, yesterday too.

Whatever.

Actuelly maybe it was today.

So fucking pathetic and attention seaking right? I agree. This bitch Cassandra won’t listen.

Maybe we should kill him and use the money for something cool and reviving.

I don’t know.

Does she even have a partner ?

Anyways, the resting amount of pills won’t cover an overdose now. Should’ve shoved the whole thing.