Author: bitethecross
I was clean for 6 months. I didnt do it because my dad said he would beat me if he saw another scar on my wrist but the feeling was too overwhelming this time and I didn’t care if i get beat.
It felt amazing, but I was clean for so long, so so so long. I missed it everyday though, I thought of it constantly. I dont even need to be sad in order to want it, I do it to see the blood. I feel disgusting because I cant be normal, I look normal but im far from it.
Im only so young, terribly young for this and I feel so weird, weirder than anyone my age. My life is fucked up and I think about dying all the time but its all pathetic because Im a little pussy shit and cant do it.
Im a straight A student, decently popular, I eat good food, I talk to friends, I play sports, I have hobbies, I go to church, I have fun, but all my feelings can build up on a random Sunday and I’ll end that, Ill end that perfect life and go to who I truly am.
I feel so alone, so so so alone. My friends arent truly my friends and I only have one I consider a real friend but she doesnt give a shit about me so is she really my friend? Im alone, no one understands me, I feel lost, I want someone to be there.
Tonight I messaged 5 people whom I believed was there for me, Im on delivered or theyll give me some sappy bullshit response about “we love you and care for you and I hope you feel better” I have no one and im afraid if this keeps going on ill actually hurt myself.
I took a deserved nap at 8:00pm. I stayed up the night before till 2am and I had so much errands to run on my three day weekend. I made a bouquet of flowers to give to a friend, she doesnt even deserve it, shes the type to only love to receive and not give. Anyway, I just enjoy making people feel happy on their birthday.
But I woke up at 11, literally 11. My body couldn’t even sleep all the way through the night and took my sleep as a nap. I dont know how to explain it but that shits just annoying, why cant i sleep through the entire night, why does it need to be a nap.
I was kinda grateful though because I didnt turn in my math homework that was due at 11:59 so Im not complaining too much, but I was still angry I woke up from a nice sleep.
Yeah, I had an episode last night but I woke up feeling like a bitch. Theres honestly no reason for me to cut myself yet I do it because it looks cool, yeah blood is fascinating. But I have a life outside whilst people on EUM are miserable middle aged men, but I digress.
Anyway, Im a teen, ill obviously get into my feels but thanks to the mean middle aged men on here I learned theres nothing to be sad about forever.
This still will not change how I feel about my dad, hes terrible.
Heres my cookie recipe though: *300 g all-purpose flour
* 1¼ tsp (6 g) baking soda
* 1 tsp (5–6 g) salt
* 227 g butter, softened
* 150 g granulated sugar
* 165 g packed brown sugar
* 5 mL (1 tsp) vanilla extract
* 2 large eggs (about 100 g without shells)
* 340 g semi-sweet chocolate morsels
This is actuelly interesting . Yk why ? Cause I think everyone at least here goes through the “i harm myself” phase . It genuinely makes sense to anyone with enough deep thinking lol .
I myself when I was 13 ish i tried to torture myself the way I saw women that got kidnapped and sexuelly abused would endure, just to try to feel how bad it is . And I tried to convince myself that I m lonely at some point and that I m pathetically depressed and shit and I pushed myself to cry and to cut my arm . But guess what . I knew it was all lies . I felt nothing of that I felt flat . I did not even dare go deep with my cuts . I had no reason to be suicidal. I think I just wanted to experiment with myself and to try to manipulate her lmao . And the experiment failed . So I think maybe it’s just a phase that u go through it and u move on éventuellement.
i used to enjoy stabbing my legs. its funny to think about now. but at the time i considered myself something of a connoisseur hhha. liked to check how deep the knife traveled by the blade before the blood started like a wellspring. then in the week/s after walking was sometimes difficult, painful with each muscle contraction
Damn one of yall did actually comment about old mother Hubbard under David patons youtube 💀💀💀
I heard rumours saying MEOW will have a post coming out about how bad of a game Call Of Booty- I mean Duty is.
Ok but ABC is kinda right tbh … this is a 18+ site why does admin allow people who should be playing with needoh on here ???
Meow is such a queen ugh I wish I could be as smart as her.
Cutting yourself is lammmmmmmmmmeeeeeeeee do some yoga stretches and focus on the feeling of your body becoming freer works everytime!
Fortnite is for babies who just learned how to use a controller lol Meow cant build for SHIT probably only got victory royale once cus “she” just walks into walls and giggles to “herself” thinking “shes” a cute little femboy “girl” gamer but little does “she” know “shes” only good at being a hole for men to use whenever they please
People have it worse off ngl sorry a lot of us go through this phase when we’re 12-14 but TBH you need to learn you’re actually privileged af grow up you little whining sod you have friends and parents and good food some of us didn’t have that growing up and still didn’t whine about it or cut our wittle wrists sorry not sorry grow up you little pussy the world is brutal and you need to realise that better you’re an American bruh people only cut themselves cause of tiktok
I know this post is probably a larp but regardless I thought this website was 18+ only Admin you fucking weirdo.. Anyway get well soon babes life just gets worse from here though